*Originally posted on August 20, 2014.
Welcome to my first public blog, “One Heart’s Voice”!  While my original intention of beginning my blog was to offer others a perspective that was relatable, hopeful, positive, maybe even inspiring – what I have come to realize, is that this blog is actually an important aspect to my healing.  Maybe at the end of the day, it is my attempt to begin my most vulnerable, raw and powerful journey of healing yet.  Perhaps it is even for selfish reasons that I feel the time is now.  Right now. Right here – with you.

So often, my thoughts overwhelm my mind to a point where sleep is foreign and I feel as though I am simply bursting with things to share.  Please, allow me to introduce myself.  I am a 35-year-old Mother of one young man and one young boy.  A Wife. A Business Owner. A Hair Stylist. A Boss. A Service Provider. A Writer. A Daughter. A Sister. An Aunt. A Friend.  And – An Avid Observer.  This blog will offer you my heart’s voice, pertaining to it all.  Writing has always been one of my greatest passions and one of my most powerful means of healing. A passion that I would be honored to share with you.

Last week, like most weeks, I had so many realizations about society, life & the power of positive energy.  My mind was racing with realizations!  Perhaps I simply had too much time to think, recently returning home from a vacation in which I drove 12 hours there and 14 hours home.  Definitely more time to think than usual.  But, who am I really kidding?  I’m a thinker by nature.  And, as I said – A very avid observer.  I found myself thinking – What if we offered a more positive perspective on things, such as the news – would we then have the ability to manifest more positive results?  If we shared our true, authentic self to others – would we manifest people in our lives that possess the ability to appreciate us, deep down to the core of our being?  I found myself pondering how to wrap myself around feeling powerless when faced with adversity?  How to muster up hope when hope is the furthest thing from what we feel?  How to maintain and open mind and open heart when, in fact – We are simply too broken?  How do we properly balance grieving and healing – without allowing our loss to consume our spirits and our lives?  And, with Summer coming to a rapid close, my boys growing up way too quickly, and in my desperate attempt to find time – it led me to question my – very unhealthy – relationship with time.  I’ve actually been thinking so intensely about these things that it brought me here. To you. With you. On this journey of sharing and healing.

Last night, I had a dream that shook me to my core.  I awoke from this dream at exactly 3:33am.  It got me thinking so intensely.  So much so, that I googled the meaning of the repetitive numbers of “3-3-3” – right there. At that exact moment. In my bed – half asleep.  In doing so, I received the exact message of encouragement and enlightenment that I so desperately needed. I woke up knowing that the time was now to share my writing. To share my voice. The delay in doing so, was due to my extremely self-limiting beliefs that no one would be interested in my writing. That no one would hear the voice I so genuinely wished to share. Still, perhaps these self-limiting beliefs are true, maybe what I have to offer is of no interest to you. However, I decided to explore the possibilities, anyway – to take that leap of faith that someone WILL be interested in hearing my voice. Maybe even appreciate it. Perhaps something I offer will lead to an “ah-ha” moment for someone that needs it – in that exact moment.  And, if … by some small miracle, my writing has the ability to inspire just one other heart, influence just one other life, or offer hope to just one other soul … my purpose will be fulfilled.

Now, please, understand – I do not promise you all positive perspectives – filled with flowers, rainbows and fairy tale endings.  What I will promise you – is my truth.  Pertaining to life.  All aspects of it.  Either through observation of others, or – through my own life experiences.  A lot of people may not agree with my decision to offer my heart, thoughts and opinions in such a vulnerable manner, however, if it is my truth – most likely, it may be yours.  While specifics of each circumstance may vary – I do believe, that the end of the day, our underlying emotions and feelings all feel very similar, if not – the same.  With the many hats we wear in any given moment – we are more alike than we are different. In a world full of Naysayers, I offer my deepest gratitude to everyone that has offered their encouragement and asked me to share my story & heart. My hope is to inspire you, while offering you my truth – and my heart’s voice.   With Love & Gratitude ~ Erin